class of herbal high 2004 ·
21 June 04

She doesn’t know it, but a parcel arrived for me on Wednesday, which contained a cocktail of different drugs.

From the strong to the weak, to the slightly dodgy-if-you-take-too-much-can-mess-your-mind-up types to the more fun. I ordered them a few days previous to that, after much researching.

To be honest, I can’t exactly remember what inspired me to do this. I think I was looking for cone gauzes, or ice bongs and came across the herbal highs. I hadn’t had skunk for a while, so I thought, what’s a legal substitute, what could I use instead that could get me high, give me a new perspective, make think differently, engage my dreams and my thoughts. The answer: legal highs.

Having decided on getting high since I didn’t have the energy to see my friends, nor the energy to write, I had to escape and get out o f my pressures through some form. I bought more books, more dvds and then I bought more drugs. Legal ones naturally. I looked at the effects of what does what, and how long they last. I was looking for two things.

• Time - the longest period of time I would be held under the influence
• Strength – How strong is the chemical, will it make me paralysed, or just incoherent
• Effects – what will the visual experience, will I see hallucinations, or will it just be the giggles
  
  

  Coming to a conclusion, I have decided, that perhaps tomorrow (Saturday) would be pilling day. Sunday would be smoking day. Why?

  
  Most of the items I purchased were not that strong unless consumed in high dosages. Having said that, they were still weak to say, taking a load of amphetamines, coco based products, or items which contain large amounts of THC. Still, some of the things I bought would cause some effects, including ill effects from nausea to perhaps something worse. It’s all very interesting though.

  The second purpose of getting these drugs, other than trying to hallucinate myself out of my chronic and forever holding depression, is to experiment. And why the fuck not? Jesus, I’m 23, I should be experimenting with everything I can lay my fucking hands on. This doesn’t mean picking up a turd off the floor, drying it and rolling it in a joint. But, be it drugs, sex, travels, experiences, acting like a complete twathead is something I should be doing at my age.

  I guess, the third reason is documentation. What do I say and become when I am under the influence of something else. I don’t have a personality as such. I consider them selected characteristics for set situations and persons. I should have every behaviour in me, good and bad, not logical and analytical. I should be an animal, a monster of some kind. It’s what I am deep down perhaps, and therefore I want to see it surface. I wrote a short story about a rape once. I lost it though. All for the better I guess. I think things that are considered taboo interest me, to explore and look at topics that aren’t often talked about. Absurdities interest me, so what if something is so fucking stupid beyond belief? Think from that perspective, or see how stupid you can become. And why not? Everyone asks why? I SAY WHY THE FUCK NOT BIATCH!?
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  There will be a lot of things to go through. Seeing as some of them last for up to 6 hours, I may not be able to try everything in one weekend. I hope, at the very least I can test all of them this weekend. I need to try them all out individually, however, over the weekend. I want to review them all separately and then start looking at mixes. And then find the best mix, so when I do get my friend(s) involved, If I get them involved, I can give them the best idea of what they might like and what they want.

  Not being an official smoker, I think the smoking gear will be the toughest to test. I have pondered on how to go about it. Coming to a conclusion, I have decided, that perhaps tomorrow (Saturday) would be pilling day. Sunday would be smoking day. Why?

  Let’s look at the logic. I am too tired to go out, and I don’t have the motivation to leave the house after an exhausting week of work and training. I don’t want to see anyone. My mother will pick up the drugs from the Post Office or wherever, and bring them to me. I will then unpack them, and this will probably be around the afternoon time since I won’t sleep until the early hours of the morning myself. By the afternoon, it may became hot, so going out will not be a good idea. Plus it would look odd for me to go out for no reason when the package is at my place.
  

  I’m 23, I should be experimenting with everything I can lay my fucking hands on.

  
  Sunday will be good for smoking because after the elation (I hope) of taking the pills, I will want to and be motivated to try the smoking stuff. Shit, I’d be happy to try something called Mad Alice any day of the week if it made me feel the same as what it was titled. It will be a chill out day, and give reason to go out. I will sleep well, and will wake up refreshed ready for work.

  The only thing I am missing is my Salvia. This is because of its expense, and also the difficulty of using something that is very “spiritual” in its illusion. I need a quite room with 0 distractions and mostly darkness. Ideally a mediation room, since it only lasts for about 15-30 minutes it is not a drug for fun, it’s for some serious vision search. It sounds very apocalyptical but is quite calming. It will be a good experience, but I need to get the desired type which is 10x strength and I need to get enough of it, and ideally have a chance to smoke it in a bong or pipe since smoking it as a joint doesn’t provide the same effect.

  So tomorrow, I should have £70 worth of a cocktail of LEGAL drugs that I can use to get and use for inspiration, motivation and imagination. My mother, religious about God as she is, will unknowingly hand me my happy friends. People who say this is all bad, and shows shallowness are being naive, ignorant and narrow minded. But then, I’m open minded enough to think that perhaps you won’t prejudge something you haven’t tried. Plus, I don’t give a fuck.

  To quote:

  “Tomorrow is a good day to get HIGH”

  Stoned Klingon – Star Trek: Herbal Generation