smokety smokers ·
22 January 05

In anticipation of the first (or only?) The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy, I bought a trilogy in four parts, and of course Mostly Harmless. I’m almost done with the first two books, and the only two I ever read as kid. The rest of the story I knew or followed through repeat radio shows and BBC repeats of the TV episodes. Student humour, but well written.

I’ve spent a helluva long time on this blog site, and it’s irritating – I still haven’t decided what program I’ll be using, be it WordPress or e107 and it’s driving me round the bend – though I am, admittedly, becoming partial to WP in terms of quick loading, and better use of CSS. Plus it’s easier to maintain, it’s just a shame I’m using a beta product, and that support never supports – think I pissed off too many of the top dogs with my comments, like I care.

Applying for work, has been harder than I thought. I have undersold myself with an honest and accurate CV. The jobs I applied for were all middle of the road, admin jobs – but I think the job title is putting off most of them to submitting me for a bog standard admin job. Yet, I refuse to lie, or bend the truth, or say I’m actually retarded so please give me a job. The alternative is the possibility of doing an MCSE or Cisco Networking course which will result in an obvious qualification – I don’t particularly want to get back in to such dull, mundane environment. All I want is an easy going job for about a year, and then I’ll take sock of my real ambition – to be a professional procrastinator.

I feel so sick – I think I’ve become addicted to legal pharmaceutical drugs. I bought a packet of Strepsils – these are strong, antiseptic and anaesthetic sweet-like tablets, and I’ve almost finished them. You’re supposed to take 1 every 4 hours or something, on top of that I’ve been taking paracetamol (low-fi painkillers) like they were peanuts. It’s supposed to mess up your liver if taken excessively. Guess I’m fucked then.

Having said all that, my previous attempts to purify my body have resulted in irritation. I can barely write in the state I’m in, I mean I knew lethargy and I were married, but I think it’s taking over my existence.

As you probably know, there’s a lot of things wrong with me. The other day inhaling was causing my ribs to hurt like crazy, today my sides are in agony; my throat has a line of blood right at the back – it’s not actual blood, but a vessel that seems to have become inflamed; my tonsils are fucked; I’m depressed and exhausted. Then of course there’s the stupid eye test for next month, to either confirm or clear me of having glaucoma, after that, perhaps a head scan, or some happy pills in the form of migraine tablets – and if those don’t work, a bullet in the head I hear works wonders.

In other good news, I decided today was the day I genuinely quit smoking. I don’t have any after effects from quitting, I did it for a year with no problem. I’m also contemplating cutting out any use of cannabis and cocaine, and possibly alcohol too. Having said all that, my previous attempts to purify my body have resulted in irritation. I can barely write in the state I’m in, I mean I knew lethargy and I were married, but I think it’s taking over my existence. One step closer to professional procrastinator then…

Anyway, it might work out good, because if I do have withdrawal symptoms, I’ll log it because let’s face it, the content here has been lacking of late I put this down to software that makes it hard to blog. I don’t think I’ve sworn yet, I’m in one of my….gentle, sympathetic modes, so most of what I write will be soft and airy. I can’t be aggressive when I’m sick. Well, I have another B-movie waiting for me, and I have to decide how to build my review site.

Ciao fer now